Saturday, August 16, 2008

Who Am I?

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UPC Conference Church 2006 De Bron, Who Am I - Casting Crowns/ Performed by the Oslo UPC Youth Group. They got in November a new concert at Oslo, Norway. Video's will be posted on Youtube.





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For many years I struggled with my identity. I had believed the lies that I was worthless, inadequate, hopeless, helpless.... I was on the performance track - if only I was..... I kept trying to achieve some kind of standards that the world and even the Christian world had placed on wives, mothers, etc. I tried to be everything to everyone. I kept "missing the mark"; I would sink deeper in depression and self loathing until one day I literally stopped in my tracks. Literally! I was driving home one day from work and I had to pull the car over to the side of the road - I had no idea what I was doing or where I was going! I started to cry out loud to God for Him to take my life. Not - here I am Lord take me - No, this was a cry to end my life! I couldn't keep the charades up any longer. Something had to give. The Lord didn't take me home that day, but He did hear my inner most longing and true heart cry - HELP ME LORD! I CAN'T DO THIS ANY MORE! I don't know how I got home, but when I did my husband took me to the mental hospital for help. They decided I was suicidal, they had me commit voluntarily. I was there for only a few hours when I ran to the nurses station and told them I wanted to leave. Since I went in voluntarily I was allowed to go home, even though they advised me not to leave. I had taken a three week leave from work, Jim had friends of ours with me at all times when he could be with me. The next day after I left the hospital, my husband took me to a Christian Counselor who with his wise guidance and God's strength I eventually found my worth - my identity in Christ. The counselor and I went through daily sessions for several weeks, then weekly, bi-monthly, and monthly for a year. We began with the Word of God and with the book study, The Search For Significance by Robert S. McGee. My life was changed forever. I had been a Christian since I was 12; a pastors wife and teacher, but for the first time I truly understood what God thought of me and how He saw me. For years I did not see God as a tender loving God. The only father figure I had was my own father who was physically, emotionally and verbally abusive. I feared God the same way. Now I saw God for Who He truly is! Not just my Savior, but also my tender loving Father! The chains of bondage were finally broken! I was truly free! I am a deeply loved and special daughter of the King of Kings and Lord of lords! At the tail end of my sessions with my counselor, He told me I should study to become a counselor myself because he said I truly had a grasp on things and felt that God was going to use me to help others. I prayed about it and for a few months even dismissed the thought. Then one day God revealed to me that the time was right, I enrolled, studied, received my BA in Biblical Counseling and have used this gift to help others break their chains that so heavily weigh them down.
Do I ever fall back in my old mind set? You bet! When I do pull out my Who I am in Christ that I have in my bible; I pray and cry out to God, "Lord, take my life!" But this time though it's a cry giving up letting God! Giving God control of my mind, thoughts, doubts and life. It's no longer a cry of desperation, but a cry of aspiration.
Here is a little reminder for you to print out and carry in your bible for days you may need a little reminder of who you are in Christ
WHO AM I IN CHRIST

In Christ I am DEEPLY SIGNIFICANT.
I reject the lie that I am worthless, inadequate, hopeless, or helpless because…
Acts 17:28,29; Genesis 1:26
I am God's child, created in His image.
I believe
Ephesians 2:10
I am God's workmanship, created for good works.
I believe
Genesis 1:16
I am a God's steward, a manager of His creation.
I believe
Matthew 5:13
I am the salt of the earth.
I believe
Mathew 5:14
I am the light of the world
I believe
John 15:1,5
I am a branch, a channel of God's life.
I believe
I Corinthians 3:16
I am a temple of God.
I believe
2 Corinthians 5:17-21
I am God's ambassador, a minister of reconciliation.
I believe
2 Corinthians 6:1
I am God's co-worker
I believe
Philippians 3:20
I am a citizen of God's kingdom.
I believe



In Christ I am UNCONDITIONALLY ACCEPTED.
I reject the lie that I am rejected, unloved, or unwanted because…
1 John 4:8
I was created to be loved by God because He is love.
I believe
I Corinthians 12:27
I am a member of God's family, His body.
I believe
1 Corinthians 6:19,20
I belong to God.
I believe
John 15:15
I am God's friend.
I believe
Deuteronomy 32:10
I am the apple of God's eye
I believe
Colossians 1:14
I have been redeemed and forgiven of all my sins.
I believe
2 Corinthians 5:19
I have all my sins no longer counted against me.
I believe
Hosea 11:1-3,8
I am fully loved and care for by God even when I fall.
I believe
I Corinthians 6:19,20
I have been bought with a price.
I believe
Ephesians 1:1
I am a saint, a holy one by calling not by behavior.
I believe
1 Corinthians 3:1-16
I am a dwelling place of God's Spirit even when I fail.
I believe


In Christ I am TOTALLY SECURE.
I reject the lie that I am rejected unprotected, alone, or abandoned because…
Jeremiah 31:3; Malachi 3:6
I am loved with God's unfailing and unchanging love
I believe
Romans 8:35-39
I cannot be separated from the love of God.
I believe
Ephesians 1:3
I have been blessed with every spiritual blessing.
Psalm 23
I shall not want becausI believe
2 Peter 1:3
I have everything I need for life and godliness
I believe
God is my Shepherd.
I believe
Philippians 4:13
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me
I believe
1 John 5:18
I am born of God and the evil one cannot touch me.
I believe
Ephesians 1:17-21
I have the immeasurable power of God at work in me.
I believe
Romans 8:28
I am assured that all things work together for good.
I believe
Philippians 1:6
I am assured God's work in me will be completed.
I believe CHRIST


Adapted from Neil Anderson, Ministering The Steps to Freedom In Christ, Reproducible edition.

7 comments:

Denise said...

This was so beautiful, and very inspiring. You are such a lovely example of God in action. I love you my friend.

Marsha said...

This is a terrific post.

I love you, lil sis! Thank you for using your gifts for Him. I'm just one of many who continues to be blessed by you.

JadeMerie said...

I absolutely love this song, thank you so much for sharing!

Earthmommy said...

What amazing and powerful testimony!

Cheryl said...

Love this song! Thanks for sharing your heart as well.

Have a great weekend!

Blessings!
Cheryl

boutcrazy said...

That's about the most amazing thing I've ever seen. Thank you for sharing.
Deborah

luvmy4sons said...

I love those scriptures. I read Neil's book...but I need to get back to proclaiming those truths every day!